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I’ve really been debating on what to share and what not to share about my personal life. Which is why I have gotten away from blogging lately. I enjoy blogging, because it is something I do for fun because it mixes my two favorite things to talk about….Sienna & Fashion. But, at the end of the day… life isn’t always rainbows and butterflies. Sometimes it’s dreary, dark, and messy!
It started back in December/January when we found out we were pregnant! I was so excited!!! We videoed our reactions finding out, it was a positive test (we did this when I was pregnant with Sienna, too!) We did the whole “buy the Big Sister shirt” to tell close family and friends. She loved looking at my belly and “kissing” the baby. It was my kind of perfect… she was already falling in love with her new sister or brother. I couldn’t have been happier.
But then, in late January/February I started to show signs of a miscarriage. I couldn’t believe it because we had only found out weeks ago we were pregnant. I wasn’t sure how to feel or which emotion to feel first. Scared, sad, nervous, angry, or disappointed! To be honest, looking back I think I was feeling every emotion at once. Most of all though… it was just downright heartbreak. My ER visit confirmed I was miscarrying and that I would need to schedule a follow up with an OBGYN.
In the meantime, I waited to get on the schedule with a highly requested OBGYN in the area. I finally scheduled my dentist appointment, which I had been putting off because I knew if I was pregnant, I wouldn’t be able to have anything done in the first trimester. And then…. I found out I needed to get my first ever root canal and crown. Greaaaatttttt! But, this is something I know how to deal with.. it’s just dental work.
Then I had a mysterious spot show up in my hairline. It was changing shape, color, and size all within a few days. I thought to myself… well, isn’t this just wonderful? I was just there 6 months ago being responsible and doing my annual skin cancer checkup where the doctor told me I don’t have a skin type to ever worry about. But….I did live in Hawaii for over 3 years and barely ever wore sunscreen. Yes, I know… not smart, but I rarely ever burn. To be on the safe side my doctor and I agreed, to cut it out right away.
I continually felt like I was getting kicked down and everytime I would brush myself off to get back up something else would happen to knock me right back down. It was really all more than I could handle at once. I kept telling myself it could be worse, I’m lucky.
Then…….I got the call after finally getting the appointment with my OBGYN. I had CIN2 and would require a LEEP procedure. Well, isn’t that fantastic! What is it? CIN- what? What does the number after mean? Well, I never even heard of it and overnight I was a (google) expert in all the terrible things that could happen. Word of advice: Do not google if you ever need a LEEP!
But, I’m here and happy to say that my dental work got finished after about a month with a temporary crown, my skin cancer scare was nothing to worry about (still not sure what they said it was… they said benign and that’s all I needed or cared to hear) and my LEEP procedure went well. I’m enjoying the sunshine and looking forward to summer!
Maybe in the future, I will share more about my miscarriages or LEEP. I know the two topics are very taboo because they are very private things and for a while I wasn’t able to talk about it at all. I wanted to act like it didn’t even happen. But hearing other people’s stories behind closed doors helped me.
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